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~~~~"Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I'll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about. Ideas, language, even the phrase "each other" doesn't make any sense. mevlana jelaluddin rumi - 13th century"~~~~



my multiply


"Marge it takes two to lie: one to lie, and one to listen."--Homer Simpson

Samurai X....ahhh..one of my fav anime series...this is his sensei..so handsome one..*drools*

This is my old friend cutwins. we go way back..like some 23 years..gee..that's a really long time..i was 12 when we were in the same class. anyway, here's her blog. another cool and funny site. at least for me that is..hahaha. ladle-cook:)

Poisonpen is another friend of mine. we used to go to chalets together with her parents..we lost touch with one another but glad that i found her again..hahaha..

For some reason i cannot upload an image, so i will just write this for now. My new friend who is living in North Carolina. a cool blog recommended by banana. thank you jenab. her name is Suriyati :)

Another cool blogger with a very colourful career and life :) Hartini

Love the food pics on her blog. A fun read too :)Lady Lee

another foodie blog for me. love the pics of the sweet treats that she made :)evan

A very informative blog. Love reading it :) Lin

Another amusing blogger. Nora

Nice site :) love reading her blog nuralia

life journey of a housewife. khaty

love her amusing entries. NAH

mamijarum cool blogger from UK. best seh tinggal kat sana :)

Home of sweet leilanie

Annand her stories :)

kyutie orang dia nampak comel betul gitu :)

Nissa another old friend..actually dulu tinggal block sebelah jer :) i love her food pics :) maklumlah, i kan foodie junkie :P

FaiQah interesting konfessions of a preschool teacher :) i loike.


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Monday, October 09, 2006
it's 5.33 pm ..an hour and a half to go :)
okay..time for an update. nanti kena sindir lagi..nak mourning pun tak senang..hahahahaha.... i was really very2 busy last week. let's see, had to work a lot and on top of that, i had to babysit. oh i was still moping on and off. and we are feeling so much better. still, for anybody who has experienced a loss of a loved one, it doesn't get better..but, we accepted what had been dealt to us.

well, last weekend, we went to kansas city and stayed with friends. then on sunday, we went to check out some of the malls that had gone out of business. went to macy's and got a couple of things. but what caught my attention was this place called 'purrfect pets'. it was a store, well not a store but a humane society type of place where they accept abandoned cats and took care of them. you have to pay a fee, an adoption fee, but they are all checked out by the vet. i saw a few that i liked that looked like hobbes. and i am thinking that, there is where i would get another cat.

i discovered that the dynamics are not the same. i need a cat that would come up to me and sit on my lap or next to me, like hobbes did. mr b will do that too, but not often. he will only be near us when we are in bed or when he wants something. and i found out that a female cat is good at that. there was this one year old cat called 'manx' and a small kitten called 'felicity'...manx is what i had in mind but, maybe have to reprogramme her..hehehe..will call her hobbes II. hartini, you were not the only one to suggest that name..hehe. so we'll see. i have also contacted the humane society here to be on a lookout for a female tabby. so we'll see.

today for buka..doc will have gyro and hummus and olives. i got for him all the sauces from our fave med store..yummmss! i will have my x-rated sambal..hehehehe...*winking at sri*...and i made lauk kangkong masak air with fishballs and suun. bau dia so lah harum..tak sabar nak tunggu buka. but then takut pulak nanti sekali tak sedap..hehehe. hancus harapan. will also make cinnamon rolls jugaklah for dessert.

ni ah gambar sambal dot dot dot..hahaha..and yang kat atas tu, the asam rebus kacang panjang that i made last week too. leh hirup2 like soup while eating the sambal. i still have the brown sungar brownie that i made last week too. hmmm..maybe will not make the cinnammon rolls. tunggu sampai brownie habis lah :)

i thought of sewing my own baju kurung. so we will wait and see if i will get around to doing it. right now, i have the baju that i bought back in 2001 and can still fit :) well, it could hardly fit me even back then, but this time i have losnt enought weight, that it fits comfortably. the baju doc yang pilih when we were there. it is this kebaya panjang, in thai silk. kaler pulak wahhhh..orange i tell you. nanti i amik gambar insyallah..but if not, i will wear my fav baju kurung made from kelantan silk. baju ni ada banyak memories. my dad got it i kelantan..that time he tukang jual kain..one day will tell you this story eh. anyway,this kaler, it's deep read with bright yellow flowers..well the outline jer..insyallah i amik gambar jugak..anyway, i still have it and dah alter the pinggang so can fit me now..maklumlah dah anak dua..most times dok rumah jer..makin tembam lah i ni :) so i can still wear that. infact, i think besok pakai baju kurung gi keje pun bagus.  biar omputeh kat sini terperanjat japs..hahaha :)

as for the girls, they have theirs already and doc pun dah ada baju melayu.  okaylah...nak gi prepare2 barang sikit. ingatkan dah nak buat muruku..but i takder tepung gram lah..i thought i had a bag but i must have used it all. takper..besok lusa nak gi kedai mama baru kat st. joe..dekat sikit tak yah nak gi kansas city :) okaylah..later everybody :)



Posted at 05:29 pm by bunkerangs
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Friday, September 29, 2006
coping..:)
well, it's been almost 3 days since her passing. and i have come to terms with it. am no longer in shock. it is strange not to have her around. everywhere i look, it reminds me of her. she is everywhere. where i am, there she will be next to me. sitting on the couch in fron of the tv..in bed doing my beading or surfing, or when i am cooking in the kitchen. but what i miss the most is when i come home from be it work, store or anywhere, she'd be the first one to greet me.

last night when i got home, i went to the kitchen. i saw thing and the first thing that came out of my mouth was ' hey hobbes'...my ritual greeting for her. i called thing hobbes..*sigh*...anyway, i bought some plants today and planted it on her grave. i bought, a peach astilbe, a pink coralbells, a japanese something ot other and a fern. insyallah, these plants will grow well. these are the plants that thrive in shady areas.

i guess, i was too shocked to tell what happened after all is said and done. when we went to pick hobbes body up, they put her in a bag and then put it in a box. sarah was with us. sarina was in school. sarah saw the box and she was giggling happily. she thought that it was funny for hobbes to be in the box. then when we reached home, i told doc to take her in while i go and bury her. after that, i went into the house and the first thing sarah asked me was where's hobbes. told her that hobbes is not coming in and she is no more. she is dead...sarah started to bawl. she told me that she wanted hobbes and had to pacify her...her with her crying and me with mine.

anyway, a little later one of my friends called me up. trying to catch up with stuff since she had been gone a few days. told her about hobbes and well, by then, my morbid sense of humour had returned. like how i always deal with sadness, i turned it into jokes...yep..just like how i dealt with my parents demise. she asked me if i wwould tell sarina...thinking that it might be hard for her. i honestly thought that it would not matter to sarina. i mean she doesn't seem to care much for hobbes. her favourite being thing. it is her cat after all. anyway, i told carrie that i would not tell her and would just let her think that hobbes is still at the vet and all that. but i changed my mind that evening. i figured she has the right to know too and also i wanted to see what her reaction would be.

what i saw on her face was something so touching and indescribable. well, maybe i can describe it a bit :) after telling her that hobbes is gone..her first reaction..was almost a smile..but it stopped short after my words had sunk in..in an instant, her mouth formed ths big O and her hands went to her mouth..her eyes got huge and she started wailing.. she kept saying she wanted ' hobbey' back...had to hug her and pacify her a bit. had to remind her of what happened to atok and nenek. then she got all paranoid and asked me if thing would die soon too..told her that i do not know and hopefully, these two cats would last a little bit longer.

it never crossed my mind that her reaction would be as such. i mean, what was i thinking? she practically grew up with them since she was a baby. i had mr.b and hobbes about a few weeks before i gave birth to sarina. she would be in her bouncy and the 2 cats would be playing around her. she invaded their territory..accidently ate their food and all that. to think that i thought, she would not care about what happened to them. sheeesh!.anyway, thank you all for the kind words. i really apreciate it. just be prepared that for the next few entries..i could be still talking about hobbes :)

here's a picture of sarah with her short hair. i told her to smile but for some reason she thought that i told her to show me what's in her mouth :) a picture of nasi tomato from sri nyer blog , a picture of the blueberry scone and also the new colour of our stairs landing and the hallway.

Posted at 11:24 pm by bunkerangs
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